BIG DEAL

It was not a Big Deal
Ten minutes ago
I had hormones swirl
From my head to toe
I don't know if I melted at his touch
Or his muscular frame I liked so much

It felt scripted because it was quick
Like the wonders of Moses' stick
He probably was 10 years older
That difference made me bolder
As if my whims were doused with strong drink
I lost my ability to think

I was taught A,B,C
I understood 1,2,3
But Biology class did no justice
To this body battle I now notice
My breasts had outgrown my brain
This gap set me up for shame
No one gave me a head start
For what now tears me apart

I'm female for Heaven's sake
Made when man was not awake
Perhaps to give him a pleasant surprise
Not for exploitation or lust's Prize
Very true I was not forced
Very true I was not coerced
Very true I was not caged
But very true I was under Aged

My name is 'Her' and I'm 14
Filled with wishes of what should have been
Losing my virginity was my Achilles Heel
10 minutes after, I knew it was a Big Deal

By: Godwin Banmah